Trusting Him for every moment
It's counterintuitive to slow down. Life is full with my kids, homeschooling, ministry. My natural response in the midst of a busy day is to keep going, not to slow down. But as He reminded me of His words I read this morning, I could just feel him constraining me. Routine trips to the bathroom were short prayer moments with Jesus. Washing dishes, and heating up lunch, were times of breath prayers. "Be with me here and now. Each moment. Help me finish what I need to do. In fact, please show me what I need to do. I trust you will give grace for all my needs. I want to commune with you. Each moment. Would you show me?"
Micah almost fainted tonight on the bathroom floor. The color drained from his face, his voice faded to a whisper as he told me he couldn't keep his eyes open as I carried him to his bed. In that moment I sensed the Lord reminding me that my learning to be with him all day was for this moment. While there was a momentary panic, it didn't last like it normally would have. I sensed His peace wash over me. I could trust in the hand of my Father even for that short moment of time before Micah's color and energy returned.
"My child, walk with Me and know My presence. I am with you always. You miss me so often because you're busy, running to the next thing. I need you to slow down and walk. I am here in this moment and that is all that matters. Learn to daily center your heart and mind on Me. I will sustain you and keep you. Practice trusting Me in everything. As hard times hit, you will know that I am with you because you've been learning to live moment by moment, depending on Me."